It's 5am-insomnia and stress. This week I'm working 6 days in a row, roughly 75hrs of working/commuting jammed into that space of time. I have an eye infection, but I can't see well enough in my old glasses to wear them all the time, so I'm rocking contacts despite pain. I'll get one day off in a few more days, then I'll get the pleasure of working 8 days in a row after that. Haven't dared to look at my schedule after that because I start having panic attacks. Trying to stay upbeat while living in a filthy house, struggling to drive home safely after a 15hr day, not having time to buy groceries or fix non- peanut butter and jelly meals, not getting enough sleep, and having to cut my normal amount of showers more than in half, is impossible. I don't know that I will be maintaining this blog anymore until life slows back down. I just have no interest in anything I used to enjoy except my horse, as I think most of me is just focusing on getting by right now. Maybe things will be better next month, but right now I'm tired and unhappy, and that makes for poor blogging.